The Battle Between Faith & Doubt

There are days I just sit back
Sit back and stare into the light
The light that was once dark
Once dark as my heart
But soon enough, people surrounding me mentally and physically fell apart including me
My mind was telling me one thing and my spirit was telling me another
God told me something like no other
He told me that I had potential
Potential to grow
Potential to demonstrate him
Potential to overcome this spiritual warfare

And then here’s Satan ..
Telling me that God won’t hear my cries
That God will never see the despair in my eyes
That God will never touch those who are weak
Because he will never fill those who are empty
That I will never develop a taste of God’s glory
Because he will never get close to me
These evil forces were telling me that I will never win or ever find an opening

Battling between faith and doubt
Somehow God & I spoke again
Saying that I should not let the devil have his way
That I should refuse to give in
God told me to obey and he’ll lead the way
Through the power of faith, I had no choice but to pray
Whenever fear and doubt entered the room
Satan was dancing while God knew exactly what to do
He gave me rains at the right season
The season where new crops grew
So that I can make room for the new

I had so much faith in God
That I wanted to demonstrate him
Although I was flawed, I was not a fraud
So I took that helmet of salvation and my sword of spirit
& I told Satan this battle is for him, not for you
And I will flee from you
God told me that I will win
When I decide to stop stumbling over sin
He reminds me to gird myself daily
To wear any necessary pieces of armour that I may need so that I enter the gates of heaven safely

Any light that projects through the cracks
Reminds me that there is such thing as a flower growing through concrete
For Christ who has set me free
I continue to bloom in the light, continue to walk by faith and not by sight
To reveal the strength in my leaves
Although there are times when my stem bends
God reminds me that it will never break Because of him