In My Feelings

Sweet Husband of mine
How can I tell you?

How can I say...
I feel useless here
I feel other here
I miss home

You work hard
You include me in everything
You made this home

But I can't land a job
I can't contribute
I feel lonely

1000 miles away from Cali
1000 miles away from family
1000 miles away and no job
1000 miles away and "ethnic"

I feel like I can't do anything
I can't pay for food
I can't pay for our fun
I can't drive
I feel I have no right to say

I miss the noise from my house
I miss the food
I miss my family
I miss being the norm
I miss being able to pay for stuff

The burden is on your shoulders...
Alone, And.
I can't even help

My sweet dear Husband,
I love you.