To Love Myself

I’m constantly bombarded with contradicting opinions
That leave me confused about my self-image
I’m told that I’m unique among all the billions
Of people on Earth; why am I so timid?

If I’m such an amazing human being
Why have so many tried their best to destroy me?
There must be something that I’m not seeing
For people to react extremely; either they love me or hate me.

Maybe by loving me too much, people end up destroying themselves
And they curse me for my very existence
So how can you ask me to love myself?
You’re messing up my inner peace with this inconsistence.

Some days I like what I see in the mirror
Other days I wish I was someone else
Compliments like “beautiful” leave me feeling bitter
When just a moment prior, you made me feel like I’m worthless.

My worst enemy are my dark thoughts
That often manipulate the scenarios into being worse than they occurred
I’m suffering from a serious loss; my self-confidence is nearly gone
It’s frightening the power held in a single word.

Before you tell me to love myself
Please show me that you love me
To this dark place I’m in, I want to be able to say farewell
For the moment, I either love me or hate me.