Crucified

 
 
 
    I believe it starts with pride on either side the crucified; one can not run, evade or hide, though often you find need to try; a lethal blow to self esteem will either bring you to your knees, or walking like a hollow being; more or less to high degrees; is there still use of keeping peace; one knows there is; you walk alone and silently; you crack a smile, and then it fades.... you can not speak on certain days; you wished you felt the urge to strive for what the people  say is great; you barely feel like you're alive.... "stop talking down; you kill my vibe"; I guess I should apologize; one finds a way to pass the time; when you start to close your eyes; inside your dreams you're last in line.... you'd like to think that you don't mind the altered pain you have inside; where is your voice; you can not speak; every word and move costly....