When I was a little girl,
I always wished that I was a boy.
I wasnít a boy,
but I wasnít very girly either.
I was proud to be a tomboy.
And then one day
the word androgyny
was added to my vocabulary.
I still struggled to find my identity
throughout my teens,
intent on indulging
Boys continued to break my heart,
I fell deeply in love with a girl.
But I was too afraid to tell her,
and our paths
I thought about her for 10 long years,
while suffering the consequences
of empty promises
from a man.
But then in a burst of damnation
from deep within my soul,
I left him... I was free
And she found me,
and she told me...
she loved me too.
My world turned upside down,
and now I am so eager to live my life!
In my heart I could always see us:
walking casually through fields of ferns,
the sunlight reflecting our love...
And now the time has finally come;
it feels like the first day of my life!
For the first time,
I suddenly know
what it feels like
to be alive.