Into The Dark

I am not ready to disembark into the dark  
amid the cold and the confused    
the waters there spit down on my soul    
washing out my way    
as my conscience cries    
thru reddened eyes    
    
It is not far but it is long    
and long i do    
for those simple sounds    
percolating amongst the warm    
the comfort, the care    
pain might disappear    
     
I call out to the east    
begging that fateful breeze    
if only    
     
but it will not  
and I disembark