Forgive me Father, I have Sinned

HOLY FATHER I HAVE SINNED,

I come in tears afraid to be condemned for the gifts you blessed me with.
Such as lips, and skin, and the gold hues that reflect the sunlight off of them when you make it shine just right.

As grateful as I am it reveals thick thighs and walking by I catch the eye of every holy guy that you also created?

How could something so natural be taboo or debated? I've come for answers and for saving.

Father I have sinned.
I caved in, and the other day I touched myself although ashamed it was amazing and I'm shaking when I recollect,
I've come for cleansing I've come to forget the ecstasy so I won't do it again.
Thinking of the kittens and how sister Theresa said masturbation makes us lose them, I can't see the fairness in that father I have SINNED

I need to be washed in that blood of the lamb, for letting men lift my hems before breaking me in, bathing in sweat and sin, father, if you don't pray i'll sin again, for his demons make me succumb to my flesh and one touch its wet again Father.

Is it normal is it something you've never seen?
Could a pure woman have such vivid dreams of filthy things her body's yearned but eyes have never seen?
Or is it just me father?
The burdens placed on me of being a daughter are far to unheard of, I could combust thinking of the touch of a man is that unheard of?
After sweet relief I hit my knees not to finish or to please but to scream for REPENTANCE and your cleansing of me. Father.
I have sinned