M.J.E

This is too difficult...
What is your motive?
Why did you play me?
Is this how you're getting back at me?
 
Raise my hopes
Then break me
I can't forget...
You didn't either...
 
You made me happy
You made me think I had a chance
Is it fake?
What's going on?
 
We spent hours
Talking about you and I
But I feel like I shouldn't get close...
I'm hanging on by a strand.
 
If it's not fake...  
Pull me up
Do what you know I wanted to do
It's probably hard to remember who we were.
 
How happy you made me.
I'm still stuck in that time when we called it love.
But now this mirror is getting foggy
Is this me?
 
Is this all a lie?
Please!
Tell me!
I can't hold on for much longer...
 
When we broke up...
Did you actually want to?
Was it all your father?
Was it all because there was supposed to be distance?
 
Or is it cause I didn't do anything...
I should've held your hand
I should've hugged you!
I should've kissed you when I had the chance...
 
I shouldn't have let them take you away from me!
I should've told you how I felt!
I should've been honest!
Now I'm the one here...
 
Sitting alone.
Crying
Missing you
You moved onto others...
 
But we still talked
You know what we had been doing...
Those words ring throughout my mind...
I can't get over you!
 
My heart aches
My mind blank
My vision is hazy
My senses are dulled
 
Why was all of this said?
Why do you say one thing in front of everyone...
And another to me...
What do you want?
 
Do I have a say...
You've always been from a different world...
You're extraterrestrial...
Kiss me...
 
Take me high
I thought that I'd been hurt before...
The amount of times I had been rejected
The amount of times I've been shut down.
 
I've been through break ups...
But why does this one hurt the most...
Our song...  
All of me...
 
I have it permanently stuck in my head...
It used to bring me joy!
But now it reminds me that you're gone
You... It had always been you...
 
When I met you...
I got this weird feeling
Like my heart was doing jumping jacks
Then you kissed my friend...
 
I acted happy for him
But It was like my heart was getting strangled...
I wanted to cry
But I didn't...
 
Whenever I saw you two...
I wanted to drop
But I put on a facade...
Making sure you never knew
 
But then I did it...  
I asked you out  
You said yes...
And I was to nervous to do anything!
 
When we broke up...
I just said...
"Whatever"
But that's not what I wanted to say
 
"Why? What did I do? How can I change? Please don't leave me..."
But I didn't...
I said "whatever!"
 
We flirted a bit after word
I wanted to take you back...
But then I did something selfish and ruined everything.
I learned to live with half my heart
 
I never showed my true emotion
And now... I can't hold back!
But I can't tell you!!!
I'm fucking broken!!!