the number of completion

today’s the first time i’ve thought about you in 7 months

i remember everything down to the last detail
the way you’d sneak hand holds when no one was looking
the way we’d laugh about things only we knew about
how you left me for her

every. last. word.
i remember every last word i said to you when i found out
every word that scarred you
every word i didn’t mean
every word i did

i feel like i was falling in love
that’s why it hurt so bad

no i haven’t cried
i haven’t let myself

sometimes i hope i open my phone a notification with your name on it will be there

i miss you
but if you were to come back right now
i wouldn’t take you