blue pill

thank you dearest Todski I function with meds well enough there's just cracks in my routine...the meds wear off in the middle of the night you should see the nightmares that chase me from sleep lol...

I'm not home yet from my rehab retreat It's confronting me my morning hours will be my weak spot...I have to stay away from ideas of an instant but detrimental fix...

hugs for you and your brother mental illness is painful.

love Brenda ❤

do you have the link to your poem for your brother? I would love to read it...

I have a lot to prove to myself about strength though I admit when nightmares chase me from sleep no matter the hour I take my meds and come here and count down the minutes until I feel better...

snorting a line in the morning is no longer an option...

I will learn coping mechanisms...

you and the poets here mean the world to me...

love Brenda ❤

"you cut me in the morning hours
and I bleed out on the floor
tiny drops of loathing
for the sunrise'

splendid phrase dearest....so sorry about the headache...

morning hug,
Jeff

thank you, dearest Jeff, aw it will be alright
just a chance for me to see how strong I can be 🌹

love Brenda

I'm rooting for you, your resolve is like no other Brenda.

thank you dearest Tim I'm back home now I'm feeling good...

love Brenda 💕

Crimmy,
Love you! I know it doesn't seem like it right now, but time goes pretty quick, and soon you'll be saying 'I can't believe I was doing that to myself!' Stay strong beautiful, a little while longer, until those days are gone.
You're incredible, let that beautiful you shine!
Love ya,

Matthew.

And you're a fantastic writer.

thank you dearest Matthew you're right it does and you know what I'm feeling good today...

I'm so grateful for you...

love Brenda 🌹

I'm so glad, Beautiful!!
Hopefully each day will get easier, and feeling better will be natural.
Love you dearly,
Matthew.

❤💕❤💕

it's long enough to make me reckless sobriety for the insane mind...clever word play.

thank you graciously beautiful Nari...

love Brenda ❤

As someone who's been treated for acute insomnia with a variety of medications I do connected with this write. 💊 might make better sleep but waking up can be Hell.
Thanks for sharing your soul.

It sucks you have to live like that, I also have a brother in a similar situation (bipolar schizophrenic) I’m glad you’re able to channel it into your brilliant writing. I look forward to reading your book, someday!

This hit home for me sweetie.  Love you. <3

thank you beautiful Mysterious One for understanding me...

love Brenda ❤

I know where you are coming from Brenda. I was on psych meds for 18 months. It is difficult to live with and I feel for anyone that cannot get by without. Sometimes it is challenging. *hugs*

thank you dearest Daniel for knowing where this comes from unfortunately I get psychotic without them...

hugs back...

love Brenda 🌹

Oh ... *teary* ... feel my warm thoughts and prayers Brenda ...

thank you beautiful one for the deeply felt love...i'm over a month clean it's getting easier... the mornings are rough so I come here to be with you beautiful people 💕

love Brenda

That is so wonderful ... ten years sober for my last week ... October 9th ... one day at a time ...

yay congratulations beautiful 🌹