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Life gone by in a flash
I never got to live the life I always wanted
Mines was always wasted from the beginning to now
Never got to do the things I always wanted
Not even got the chance to be normal
Most of my life was just surviving and inking out some type of existence
Never really living the life like most people on this planet
Even not experience the same things that most people do.
Mines was never really a life and it wasn稚 worth living
It was merely just living in the shadows of others and hoping my day would come
Never in my life did I ever had fun
Never enjoy the pleasures of life
Never got to do anything interesting in life
Never got to lead or manage people or things.
Never felt loved or never been in love
Never got to see what REAL life and REAL living is like.
No one of those things. I never got to experience because no one ask me
No one even offered me a chance or even showed me the door.
No one even gave me a look or asked me to join in
I知 just merely a nobody in a sea of somebodies
Who痴 done everything and never gave me a chance
Which is why, half my life now has been wasted on lost opportunities and ones denied to me
Ones that never gave me a chance and never opened the door for me
Rest of my life now is just living, hoping that life gets better
Or my next life gets to be normal like everyone else.
I sit and watch everyone else having a life and having fun
But I often wonder, hope and wait for the day that I can have a life and at least have fun
Before they shove me into cryostasis
The most I can hope for is to live with whatever life I have left and make the most of it
Cause the first half was wasted and the one I知 in now, I知 just surviving it and living it
I知 never gona get back the ones I lost in the 1st half of my life
I知 just surviving with the ones I have in this one
Hoping it doesn稚 turn out as bad as the first half I was in
But at least I got to see the life I could have lived in others, that I should, could and would have
Sadly, will never happen in the current life I知 living in right now.
Mines was always wasted from the beginning to now
Never got to do the things I always wanted
Not even got the chance to be normal
Most of my life was just surviving and inking out some type of existence
Never really living the life like most people on this planet
Even not experience the same things that most people do.
Mines was never really a life and it wasn稚 worth living
It was merely just living in the shadows of others and hoping my day would come
Never in my life did I ever had fun
Never enjoy the pleasures of life
Never got to do anything interesting in life
Never got to lead or manage people or things.
Never felt loved or never been in love
Never got to see what REAL life and REAL living is like.
No one of those things. I never got to experience because no one ask me
No one even offered me a chance or even showed me the door.
No one even gave me a look or asked me to join in
I知 just merely a nobody in a sea of somebodies
Who痴 done everything and never gave me a chance
Which is why, half my life now has been wasted on lost opportunities and ones denied to me
Ones that never gave me a chance and never opened the door for me
Rest of my life now is just living, hoping that life gets better
Or my next life gets to be normal like everyone else.
I sit and watch everyone else having a life and having fun
But I often wonder, hope and wait for the day that I can have a life and at least have fun
Before they shove me into cryostasis
The most I can hope for is to live with whatever life I have left and make the most of it
Cause the first half was wasted and the one I知 in now, I知 just surviving it and living it
I知 never gona get back the ones I lost in the 1st half of my life
I知 just surviving with the ones I have in this one
Hoping it doesn稚 turn out as bad as the first half I was in
But at least I got to see the life I could have lived in others, that I should, could and would have
Sadly, will never happen in the current life I知 living in right now.
Published 1st Oct 2018
Author's Note
I wrote this to reflect on the fact that the 1st half of my life, I felt like it was wasted and had opportunities that were lost to me. I wrote this to show the world how I felt, not living the life like everyone else and being denied of having the life like everyone else.
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