Letter to BD
It's not fair that at your own will can say I'm done being a parent for the day. Its not fair that you can say, "I see what I can do" when clearly he's blind because nothing gets done. It's not fair I have two mouths to feed and you only have one, yet you complain about money issues and why you can't do it. It's soo not fair that I give all of me to my mini me, even though he inherited most of your looks you commit to a third of you. It's true the circumstances in which he was created was unjust, but that's the realization that we both have to live with. It's not fair that a two person mistake only effects one. I'm just soo tired of crying and stressing about it.
I know you will never love him the way I do. I pray our son one day will TRULY grow on you. You do the bare minimum to keep from being called a dead beat dad, but I have a feeling that when he gets older he will see for himself. I see missed games and plenty of excuses in your near future. Hope you get it before its too late. I'll probably always hate you but you don't want your son too. I just hope when he grows up he knows not to be like you. You lie through your teeth and have a pleasant smile to hide it. Everyone loves the social fun guy. Because of that I'm the bitter one, but you would be too if your life was put on hold for a little life to push through.
I love being a mother, no doubt, but sometimes I really need help. I'm tired of this....I didnt ask for this either, but he's here. FUCKING STEP UP AND BE A DAD DAMN!!!! having him 30hrs out of the month is not enough. I don't get to pick and choose why should you. Single motherhood and single parenthood is two different things and I'm a lone in both. As long as fb thinks otherwise who cares right.