the meth diaries~the divorce

 
I'm a meth addict
who is trying to get clean
today is day one again
I made it today...

recently my husband confronted me
he said he wanted a divorce
I felt relieved...

he stood up to my demon
we've decided I would try to quit again
he's giving me this last chance...

today is hard...
there are tweakers in the yard
who would gladly give me drugs...

I lay down and close my eyes
I see the drug
my future bleak if I give in and use...

today I will make it...
should I ever want a divorce
the drug is always there
it's not going anywhere

tweakers right outside
my life forever changed
I will be an addict for life

my husband has decided..
it will all just go away
I can't talk to him about it
so I'm here talking to you instead...

meth is a hell of a drug, it feels good
I write like one possessed while on it
I hope my talent wasn't just the ice talking

bare and alone...
uncovered and naked
I stand against this
it's up to me now
a twenty year marriage
or a drug...

the next several days
I will be writing about this
there will be little else on my mind

crystal meth...
I won't let you be the death of me