Deliver Me

Good self-exploration and longing questions.  

To date, when you're truly ready.  Which is, ehen you're contented in self and don't give a second thought about building a new friendship, from which only love can solidly grow.  

Ourself is the final battlefield we must brave in order to be completely free of fear.  

❤

Thank you so much for your comment, Ahavati

It's indeed about the internal dialogue, which released itself into a poem. I know healing should come from the inside (something about learning to love yourself first) but at the same time I deny myself a lot... love has the capacity to heal. You are right... it should start with friendship and I'm aware of that... am more careful now...

Love, Duende

As long as the mind is full. Great contemplation

Contemplation it is!

Thanks heaps for your comment, Tim

It's indeed a constant fight, Tod

In life we can't be always in control, yet many (if not everyone) try to fight it. I have a lot of coping mechanisms and they all have to do with control... letting go is a huge challenge for me (finding a sense of self worth too) and ah well...

What can I say about self destruction that you don't already know...

Thank you so much for your comment... means a lot!

I already loved the poem for its layers of vibrant honesty and dancing between different forms of withholding sustenance...

But this particular response of yours went even further. I’ve been single for many years now and it’s very difficult in a lot of ways as I’m very affectionate (read touchy freely and sexual by nature). But dating, or even letting another in is terrifying on so many levels.

So this completely strikes several chords for me, Duende. Kindred spirits; give us more when ready.

Thank you for both the compliments on my poem and your honesty... it's not easy to write what you have written and I truly appreciate your openness!

I've been single for 3 years now... waiting for the pain to pass, waiting till I am stronger, more confident, but it does get lonesome at times, I'm a very affectionate person too... kindred spirits :-)

Opening up, letting someone in is indeed terrifying... I thought about that a lot (about why it's so hard) and I think a lot comes down to trust!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cWypWe9UAhQ

A "fragile frame" but a powerful talent.  Love your succinct style and the feeling of longing, mentioned above.  I think the fear you cite is something most feel wading the dating waters.  Plenty to think about here.  Excellent work, Duende!

"A "fragile frame" but a powerful talent" > Wow! That's such an amazing thing to say! And yes... my mind is a busy place...

Thank you so much for your comment, Crowfly!

You should never allow anything to control you D. But listen to me? Just always remember you are a free spirit, the world is your oyster.  Go swimming for those pearls. You will find them in the forest of the seas. Just believe in you. Rob x

Yes Rob, I'm a free spirit, but one with many addictions. I will go swimming for those pearls, am already in the water... did you know the meaning of my real name is Pearl?

Thank you for your comment and for believing in me!

Love, Duende

beautiful Duende I think dating right now
could prove harmful at the moment
I know it's tempting...

I agree with Todski find a strong place of self-love first...

then again I would probably actually do the opposite...

only you know if it's time...

wonderfully vulnerable write...

baring your soul beautiful...

love Brenda

"then again I would probably actually do the opposite" > this made me laugh out loud!

And yes... only I know...

Thank you so much for your words, dearest Brenda!

Love, Duende

so happy to have made you laugh beautiful 😊

that brings me joy...

love Brenda

Glad it brought you joy, dearest Brenda

Being back here is so amazing, can't stop smiling!

Love, Duende

I bequeath unto yourself...FREE...now, quickly
go forth be fruitful n’ joyous! :) mmuuaahh! lol

Aye Sir, understood... will eat more fruit :-D

On a serious note... thanks heaps for your comment and support! I really appreciate you! X

Your writing is sweet and tender I enjoyed this poem!
God loves you and made you perfect, not that we be without struggles, but the enemy would have you believe you are not perfect and keep you struggling.
Favorite line,

"to surrender
my mind to
reliable hands"

1 Peter 5:7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you

Glad to hear you enjoyed this poem, TIG

The part you highlighted are actually my favorite lines!

Thank you for leaving your thoughts, I really appreciate it...

delicate...your words clearly show courage...a seedling of all a redwood needs to begin.

surrender to no one whose hands do not clearly see the jewel.

keep writing...find your center...the rest comes easy.

Your comment left me speechless, poetrician!

Finding my center sounds like a good idea, the words still don't flow as freely as they used to (the latest two are older work) but it will come...

Thank you so much for your kind words, I really appreciate them!

Duende, your gift at self-analyzing and expressing is amazing. You don't flinch when you look in that mirror and you write it without wasting words. This can be a double edged sword...if we can't also see our strengths alongside our weaknesses. You are a beautiful soul, my sweet sister

...ever your Willow

My sweet sister,

This one came out as a scream, somewhere in December I think... it was confronting to write and difficult to release. That you think I have a gift at self-anyalyzing and expressing means the world to me <3

Thank you so much for your comment and support!

With love, Duende