Ctrl. Alt. Del.

Dearest Melia,

Thank you for the warm welcome and your wise words!

It's indeed the scars that still ache, but I'm afraid some of the damage can't be undone. Sorry to hear you're going through a similar process! Acceptence is difficult, but necessary!

Take care!
Love, Duende

Oh fuck! You have to believe in yourself. Everyone in here does. In the ghost of Dylan Thomas, his skeletal fingertips guiding my cursor, I believe. BELIEVE. Rob xxx

Thank ýou so much for your heartwarming comment, dear Rob!

And for believing in me... xXx

Duende, there are few things worse than being gaslighted. To be the victim of a sociopath does alter our lives forever; however, not for the worst, but better.  

It may not seem so now in the healing stage, but knowledge is power - now you know. ❤

Dear Ahavati, to be gaslighted is indeed one of the most horrible things one can experience. As for knowledge is power... I fell in love with (turned out later) a narcissist, was raised by one, so it's probably my blind spot...

Hopefully one day I can say: I came out of it stronger ❤

Thank you for your supportive words!

You made me smile by mentioning the formatting :-)

It was written a while ago while I was struggling with a writer's block (still do) and this was the only way in which I could write it... glad you see it as clever!

Cheers to life anew and thanks heaps for your comment!

Not a wasted word.  Love your style, Duende.  

Not a wasted word indeed!

That you love my style means the world to me... thank you!

I concur with Melia... we are not alone...
And you will be stronger my dear D!!
Great piece!

Dearest lilac,

So happy to see you on my page, before I left I thought you disappeared for good. Such a huge surprise to see you here... thank you for your comment and support ❤

Super dark n painful thoughts on this. I cannot however help but mention a fact some people may not know, crtl alt del; when pressed simultaneously is a windows command for a pc warm reboot... :)

Dearest Poe, thank you for leaving your thoughts on this one and yes... I know! I choose my words and titles wisely and there are often things between the lines...

Love, Duende

Both myself and a loved one of mine fairly recently experienced something like this. Silence can easily be more cruel than harsh words, and this piece perfectly captures it. My only friendly critique is I would have liked more out of it in terms of length, assuming there was more to say (and the way this is written, I feel like there is. Maybe a sequel piece?). Very well done, I'm quickly becoming a devoted fan of the raw nerves and full emotional disclosure in your writing.

Thank you so much for your extensive comment, Taurus and for making my day by saying you're quickly becoming a devoted fan :-)

Silence is indeed cruel and I'm sorry to hear you and a loved one have experienced it too! As for length... during the writing process I add and delete pieces, because my goal is to bring it back to the essence. Learned to cut and prune when I came here...

I've written a few pieces about him, this is the last... it's time to move on!

Oh the smiles you gave me with your "my goodness"

That you could feel my pain is the best compliment you can give me... can't ask for more! Thanks heaps for your comment, dear friend!

beautiful Duende this is a heartbreaker
you are such a beautiful soul
I ache that one made you feel this pain...

emotionally powerful write...

I could feel your soul here ❤

love & hugs you tightly...

Brenda

Dearest Brenda, thank you so much for your heartwarming words!

There are a few pieces about him released already... it's been a while, but the pain remains and it changed me... I'm less carefree. Some wounds still bleed...

That you say it's a emotionally powerful write means a lot to me!

Love & Hugs, Duende

Made for an aching read.
Many can probably relate to some extent to what is given here but I get a feeling it goes a whole heap deeper...
Emotionally it takes the reader on a journey.

I know it’s easy to say, but everything does get a little easier eventually. Maybe doesn’t ever free you completely but the blood slows down to a trickle sooner or later and scabs will form ;)

<3

It goes indeed much deeper, but even though the pain got a bit less over time, I still find it hard to write about him... a love like this will change you forever...

Thank you so much for your heartwarming words, I really appreciate them <3

I do wish people would understand that human beings aren't games or play things. I'm so glad to see you back in the Underground. This is such a painful piece to read, more so when one can truly understand the sentiments. So much love, my sweet little sister

...ever your Willow

That would definitely make this world a better place, my sweet sister! Unfortunately many people lack empathy...

Thank you so much for your comment, it's good to be back!

With love, Duende

You're welcome, Ted and thank you so very much for your comment, your praise and the RL! I'm a bit lost for words, but deeply honored!

We Dutchies are free thinkers, it's hard not to love the Netherlands...

Your author note captured me more
than anything:

""time didn't ...
... erase the pain""


not went when carved too deeply, it takes
another lifetime or two