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Last words.

Its a shame it took me so long to discover the power of words,
I am not quite like the rest, an animal I am but the beast you portray I am not.
I have regrets, more then most I presume,
But the pervertions on a rather constant stream that have invaded my mind............ That part doesn't matter, because you will never, ever fucking understand the never ending abuse I see in my mind, the horrific things that happen to some of the ones I love most in my mind, imagine it was your own, you all ready have,,,, but until you can see and live with these atrocities in your thoughts every where you go... You can go fuck your selvs!!!!!!!!!   I ones wanted a family of my own until I realized and found out that this curse called OCD wasn't going away.
The older I got over the years the worse it got, the worse it got, the more I faught, the more I faught, the worse it got.
There was a time years ago I  entertained things that even you butchers couldn't understand,,,, but I faught and faught stronger at that time then I have ever in my life....         Until I finally thank God found that I am not a monster. This evil is only in my mind...
And it still is, but I'm the only one who has two bare it,    
I apologize too my family and friends, especially in the halve way houses, a few of you really tried too understand and I threw it back in your faces. Sorry.
Because I feel I just simply don't want too live with is any more.
I need my mind to be silenced.
Written by Breakingbenjamin (Benjamin)
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Author's Note
A life struggle,,, that I am quite frankly over.
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