Sorry for now

To all the perfect moments I've ruined
To all the pretty smiles I've hurt
To all the loving hearts I've hurt
To all the dreams of you and I I've killed,
I'm sorry for now
I was afraid to dive right in
I was afraid to leave myself open
I too have been hurt before
Always felt safer behind my walls.
For all the words I've left unsaid
For all the missed I love you I should have said
For all the goodbye I was too quick to say,
I'm sorry for now
Please try and understand
Sometimes the ones we love are those we feel compelled to hurt
I should have told you how I really felt
But I was just a little bit too scared
I should have let you in
I should have realized there's no point in fighting it and I should have let it win
My dear I know just why we here
I choose to succumb and give in to my fear
I built walls around My Heart
To try not to open up to anyone
Never loved even a little bit close to enough
Afraid of what you'll see inside
Afraid you'll know the scars I've learnt to hide
I chose the easy way out
I chose to run
I wish I knew back then, what I know now,
I'm sorry for now.