Relaspe

how do i say this?
do i even speak in words?
will my actions show that i am aware of what i believed you had let go?
Now what do i do that the cards i feared have faced up in true.
there will be no need to deny because i physically witnessed the proof.
in my morning routine i came across a past time of your struggle that i had prayed for days that you’d leave alone,
only to see it floating in the water of my bathroom throne.
my initial thought was “you knew that this was coming.”
it was like facing a truth i knew it was no point in running.
fuck the bush lets not beat it, to the chase we cutting.
I knew that something was off because your body had told me the signs.
i sensed that your path was altered and you began to walk on blurred lines.
im glad that i still have my peace overall,
 i will not lie though i am anxious as hell and wonder if you’ll ever answer sobers call.
This is not the time for me to be over committed in seeing you change,
i will let you handle your struggle,
 and ill keep my peace lets call it an even exchange.
i could say where you went wrong, and what you could of done to avoid this till i was
blue in the face.
but this is not a situation where should haves would help change or plead your case.
I wont assume responsibility for the actions that you take,
but i want you to realize i always feel the consequences of the decisions that you make.
this is really life....