a deities wanderlust

      
the darkness wept for a deity wandering alone    
she saw her reflection on the woman's face    
twice scorned and sent to traverse    
the mortal realm looking for a mate    
    
just when she thought her days of searching were over    
your thundering steps disturbed her lovemaking      
feelings of guilt then surfaced inside her lover  
     
the man had touched what was reserved for the gods    
this truth reflected in your glare made him feel shame    
he lusts over one who feeds his needs  
a woman, yes an immortal one    
but one with like passions    
     
you judge them for their love for each other    
saying this will not be    
crying you were made for me alone    
     
I tell you openly I would rather slit my own throat    
then fall for your treachery thrice fold    
     
I've entered your throne room    
to find it filled with harlots    
I will not be your wife in the eternity    
the chains you wear of martyrdom      
are a joke and for show only    
     
I don't stalk your steps the way you do mine    
chase these women get your fill    
but don't expect me to play your game  
I will find my place in the sun    
     
my humanity I wear like a medal of honor    
I hope it disgraces you    
knowing you better than anyone    
you can pretend for the sheep    
I know the truth of your nature    
     
would you have me proclaim the truth before the congregation?      
     
once I was an innocent who followed you blindly    
now I'm a full-grown woman with great lusts of my own    
why should I repent of my ways?    
     
when there is no place for me to be free in his-story    
I'm writing her-story      
where it's all natural the feeling that consumes    
and yes I burn with it    
     
exile yourself I will not be blamed    
renamed, pushed away then reclaimed  
we're at war Sir    
this is what you really desire from me anyway    
     
try and rape me of my feelings again    
they won't bleed for you, plead for you
this is predestination in action    
too bad you didn't see me evolve past the need of you