DID

The voices in my head say yes to the unspoken words with in my mind.
I hear their calls to be heard and yearn to be understood, at times so strong.
It’s a curious feeling to have, when you know longer know who’s who.
Living with dissociative identity disorder can be so hard at times, frustrating.
As of late, it’s as if we’ve been melting into a new person all together.
Her name is One and mine is the Other, the differences couldn’t be more clear between us.
My feelings, oops, our feelings are close to being one in the same now.
The battle I face now is that I don’t know if it is a mend or I’ve been overpowered.
i’ve learned recently to go with your logic’s, to live and learn, forgive and not forget.
To not tell others my problems because it’s none of their business about my life.
If I open up, I leave myself vulnerable to the ache of the heartbeat reaching to forbidden loves.
There is more then one of us in here you know, we might all love differently.
But that love might still be all different kinds of people, who knows.
But sometimes I start to wander in my safe room, where she can’t see...
Is this me, us or her who feels this love for this man so strongly?
She doesn’t fight me, or try to break in when I lock myself into my mind.
Time and meditation are sure to produce some answers to my heavy questions.
Maybe I shouldn’t even try to answer such things and just let it all be and lay as it is.
For now, I will love and live my life, looking to the future so that I can be happy.