Last night

Tears were rolling
My mind went blank
My body moved on its own
I went to the kitchen...

No one questioned me...
I opened the fridge...
Grabbed that bottle...
One, two three...

Chugging alcohol...
Thinking... "Get me drunk"
"Make me forget..."
"Kill me if needed..."

Half the bottle gone...
I feel tired...
My mind feels fuzzy
I stumbled back upstairs...

Pasted out on my bed...
I woke up three times...
Marina... Everytime, i saw her body lying in a casket, or in her bed, or in a bathroom...
Not moving, not breathing...

I wake in a cold sweat...
My body feels numb
My head aches...
My mind is filled with fear...