What that may be, you will never see.

You my love are the stunningly beautiful garment that I never got to wear.

How i would just stare, watch as you move like perfection in the air.

You my love are the exquisite tears you cry at the movie theatre, yet I haven't attended a show for four years.

How our love made my heart dance, like we was living in a movie romance.

You my love was my last dance, candle lit movement candlewaxed around my chest.

How my breathing falls to your glance, we my love, missed our chance.

My love you are rain.

My love you are sunshine.

My love you are slow.

My love you're a rainbow.

My love you was my chance, my love struck averlanche...

My glacier, my rock, my rocket, my moon, my stars, my ocean.

My flowers, my wool, my warmth, my charm, my alarm.

You my love are the box of chocolates too expensive to eat, delicious but oh so over priced, how could I compete.

How I shuffled, hussled and bopped, like a fish that forgot how to swim, forget me knot a deadly flower I may be.

Yet all you saw was thorns in me, you my love are the kraken in the sea, mystical, dirty, unseen.

How you shifted, transformed and twisted, your words becoming unlogical and mythological.

Real or not.

My love you are the world in which my essence surrenders upon, shouted down, my current lost its groove.

My love you are the doom that wears me down, the words that hunt me, shatter me, feelings that combust.

My love you was a time bomb, ticking going off, me your soldier keep saving you from your own bombs.

How many wars, oh how many wars, must I go for you.

My love I told you, time and time again, your not love, more like a friend.

How I listened to your lies while for your ex your cried, how dumb am I.

Soon I was shamed and bruised, battered and screwed, stood their abused and accused.

How I still pause in shock or betrayal, shock of fear, more shock of loosing my voice.

The voice that took me years to speak up so people could hear.

My love, my fear, my whole world collapsed into tears.

I ran from you, you couldn't hear, I ran so far, he found me tip toeing the cliff edge.

He pulled me in, said I'm safe instead, you hate that truth, you hate that fear.

Another man saved me from what you did here, he saved me and gave me a child.

Yet he lives in denial, convinced my life's a joke, he holds me by the throat.

My beautiful baby boy, how your such a joy, I'm not perfect my dear but I know what I'm not.

So let this grief drag in me, let this guilt subside me, let this sadness quiet me.

I will rise and rise again, every time I see your smile, every time you need me.

My strength sees me through, my love how could you think I will ever need any of you.

I have my son, he who God shines upon.

Nothing else is worth the fight, so take what charge you can because I'm getting into flight.

My love you was a warning, a scar.

My love you was a control freak.

You took my heart stabbing blank ink stains into the valves, not in my life, no thanks, goodbye.

I'd write a letter, send a call, yet after all the downfall, no one deserves to use me as a free for all.

No more naive miss run to you for ease, no more miss love you until I'm beat.

My love for me is all I need to be complete.

My love for my life, what that may be, you will never see.