her. pt1

she doesn't love me anymore.
that's what i want to believe.
no.
i want her to love me.
but she's going to hurt every part of me and
sacrifice my soul to whatever dark gods she worships.
no.
wait.
she perfect
and kind and good and loving and caring
what even am i saying.
ugh.
if she loves me still.
she would act like it right?
she doesn't talk to me anymore.
probably because she doesn't care.
she wasted months of my love,
to just leave me and make me feel like i'm nothing
just like all the other girls i liked.
sigh.
i wish she loved me forever and gave me love forever.
but that's everyone's wish.
i wish she hated me from the start so i wouldn't be writing this right now.
sigh.
i sorta hate you.
bye.