A Battle Within

Trapped in my own turmoil.
Tormented daily by my tainted woes.
Left by the wayside by my Love who still holds a grip on my soul.
Treated like a wave by my current interest who ignites a flame within so bright it burns my very core and might.
Obdurate , desolate and disaffected.. Every second of everyday is a constant struggle of neglect.
Hard to cope with my impending disease, depression beats down my door like a Hurricane 5 deadly breeze.
"Kill me yesterday" is my lament for my death, wanting what I need gravely though never do I get.
Wonder whatever will become of me --- this wandering soul, no closer am I to achieving any of my goals.
The happiness I require within-- fleeting moments yet, lasts only for that moment and never do I forget.
Cold temperatures and emotional stress two afflictions horridly met.
The question I need a desperate answer to, lest I continue my fret, how does one grapple and overcome such mundane duress?