how many

How many tears do i have to shed
Before i have none for you  
 
How many days do I have to feel afraid  
Before i can start to feeling safe again  
 
How many hours do i have to waste thinking about u  
Before i don't think of you at all  
 
How many times am i gonna wish things were the same  
Before i realize there different  
 
How may times will i think i still love you  
Before I dont love u no more  
 
How many times do I have to remember all we were  
Before I move on  
 
How many times do i have to think i miss you  
 before i dont miss u at all  
 
How many times am I gonna remember all the pain you put me through  
Before I become numb to the pain forever  
 
How many times will i think why dont u beat me so i know i messed up  
Before I stop  
 
How many times will i hear you name  
Before everyone stops saying your name  
 
How many times do i have to have flashbacks  
Before they stop.  
 
How many times do I have to flinch  
Before i dont anymore  
 
How many times do i have to think that i could have saved you  
Before I realize that i couldn't  
 
How may time do i tell myself he not good  
Before i realize your bad news  
 
How many times will I see you as a good guy  
Before I see the monster you really are.