awkward girl

  
i'm awkward with women  
I have no female friends  
I've spent years pushing them away  
not allowing any of them in  
  
don't trust no lady  
were rules to live by  
now later in my life  
I miss the flavor    
only a woman can offer  
  
i'm not talking about sex  
just someone to talk to  
woman to woman  
about things that really matter  
  
but I'm so awkward  
I push people away    
trying too hard to pull them in  
  
I don't seem to fit anywhere  
not with the straight laced    
or with those getting down  
  
It's heavy on my mind tonight  
I can't let it go    
if I offended you  
please let me know  
  
I really should have been named  
  
Needy  
  
for all this internal drauma  
  
fuck me I hurt  
  
you're a beautiful lady  
it gets very lonely  
living in the country  
  
I didn't mean to bother  
I just longed for someone to talk to  
  
this is from my heart  
please lovely listen  
a smile you will gift my face  
if you see through    
  
to the real me