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Constant & Changing
I am constant yet changing
I am myself yet someone else
I am proud yet humble
I am angry yet content
I am lost and found
I am heart and soul
I am free yet bound
I am young yet old
I am happy yet sad
I am brash yet shy
I am good and bad
I can laugh and cry
I know love and hate
I am brave yet craven
And the only excuse I have
Is that I am human
*11/27/1983
Copyright © 2004 JJ Johnson
US Copyright Office Registration: TXu1-162-978
I am myself yet someone else
I am proud yet humble
I am angry yet content
I am lost and found
I am heart and soul
I am free yet bound
I am young yet old
I am happy yet sad
I am brash yet shy
I am good and bad
I can laugh and cry
I know love and hate
I am brave yet craven
And the only excuse I have
Is that I am human
*11/27/1983
Copyright © 2004 JJ Johnson
US Copyright Office Registration: TXu1-162-978
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Constant & Changing side note
16th Oct 2011 8:25pm
1983 was a turbulant year for me. This is the time period when I fell into a deep depression. Much of my life for the next 12 years is foggy memories that are based more on my poems, stories I wrote about them and journal entries than on actual recollections of the past. I have numerous photos of family events that I have no recall of.
Poems of introspection came from a lot of soul searching while considering suicide. Had I not written explanations in my journals as to why I wrote many of those poems, I would have virtually no idea why I wrote them. There is no mention of any terrible event in my life that would explain the gaps in memory, and I do have some clear memories of random events, but I am not sure why I even recall those as nothing particularly special was happening. I often wonder if it is a faulty memory or just supressed memories. I don't even remember when I started forgetting or if I just never retained things. Maybe I have just run out of brain cells.
Poems of introspection came from a lot of soul searching while considering suicide. Had I not written explanations in my journals as to why I wrote many of those poems, I would have virtually no idea why I wrote them. There is no mention of any terrible event in my life that would explain the gaps in memory, and I do have some clear memories of random events, but I am not sure why I even recall those as nothing particularly special was happening. I often wonder if it is a faulty memory or just supressed memories. I don't even remember when I started forgetting or if I just never retained things. Maybe I have just run out of brain cells.
chameleon
16th Oct 2011 11:08pm
The chameleon stays the same even as it changes colours. Its still a chameleon. This poem is a testimony of your being. You feel therefore you are.
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27th Oct 2011 6:48pm
re: constant
17th Oct 2011 2:22am
It's a theme echoed in many works; that we are constantly adapting yet true to selves. If we were born perfect, we wouldn't be able to keep getting better, right?
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re: re: constant
17th Oct 2011 5:43am
I have actually read many poems similar to this over the years and I find it interesting how constant the universe is while everything in it changes. I have all of these things inside me, I manage them for the most part. But even the things I don't want inside me are always there, waiting for a chance to take control. 20 was a turning point in my life and for a long time, I am uncertain of the choices I made. It's a marker in time for me, as I left to wonder about the 12 lost years my body existed without me. jj
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Anonymous
28th Oct 2011 10:22pm
brilliant self poem very much enjoyed Poetryman!
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28th Oct 2011 10:33pm
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Anonymous
24th Nov 2011 3:25pm
enjoyed!
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Re: Constant & Changing
10th Jul 2012 3:28am
simple n quaint! the end really train-wrecked ;( i know there is a revision inside that will allow it to exhale softer...
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re: Re: Constant & Changing
10th Jul 2012 4:07am
"Commenting Preference: The author is looking for friendly feedback."
I happen to think the ending is the best part of the poem, but thanks anyway. It's nice to know that you pay attention to the Commenting preference. If I wanted dritical opinions on poems I wrote 30 years ago, I'd have said so. Revisions are meaningless at this point! JJ
I happen to think the ending is the best part of the poem, but thanks anyway. It's nice to know that you pay attention to the Commenting preference. If I wanted dritical opinions on poems I wrote 30 years ago, I'd have said so. Revisions are meaningless at this point! JJ
Re. Constant & Changing
24th Aug 2020 11:31am
Re. Constant & Changing
26th Aug 2020 5:21am
Thank you Olivia. 37 years of water under the bridge lead back to simpler times, though they didn't seem that way then...
JJ
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