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When What Was Meant to Be… (Wasn’t Meant to Be)
“The Light shines in the darkness,
and the darkness does not comprehend it”
was trying to assemble my thoughts
tried to think of words that would inspire
but all she could say was that she was a mess
too broken to ever be loved
I did my best to get closer
she did everything in her power to push me away
so much so that I just shattered
into one million little pieces
I can feel her cry my name
but the hurt I felt that night
was so much, too much
because what made us special
she refused to see it
and I refuse to be hurt again
nothing more than a fuck up
too lost to ever be found
her head was full of tragedy
a cold dark blazing hell
as many times as she told me that
I never believed it
so I just screamed out to her
“you’re my fucking angel!!
a gift from the heavens!”
I begged her to please let me show her
she said that she hated me
that she never wanted to see me again
it was devastating to all that self confidence
I worked so hard to build for the both of us
nothing worked in the end of it all
we fell down like shattering glass
no fairytale, no happily ever after
our hearts became darkened
with nothing left to say
not to each other anymore
the words that were meant to be said
the life I had planned for the both of us
it became so meaningless
though I can’t help but think
if only she would of let in some light
let it shine into her world
it could of revealed the beauty
that was hidden deep inside
and maybe she could of seen
I needed it just as much as she did
and the darkness does not comprehend it”
was trying to assemble my thoughts
tried to think of words that would inspire
but all she could say was that she was a mess
too broken to ever be loved
I did my best to get closer
she did everything in her power to push me away
so much so that I just shattered
into one million little pieces
I can feel her cry my name
but the hurt I felt that night
was so much, too much
because what made us special
she refused to see it
and I refuse to be hurt again
nothing more than a fuck up
too lost to ever be found
her head was full of tragedy
a cold dark blazing hell
as many times as she told me that
I never believed it
so I just screamed out to her
“you’re my fucking angel!!
a gift from the heavens!”
I begged her to please let me show her
she said that she hated me
that she never wanted to see me again
it was devastating to all that self confidence
I worked so hard to build for the both of us
nothing worked in the end of it all
we fell down like shattering glass
no fairytale, no happily ever after
our hearts became darkened
with nothing left to say
not to each other anymore
the words that were meant to be said
the life I had planned for the both of us
it became so meaningless
though I can’t help but think
if only she would of let in some light
let it shine into her world
it could of revealed the beauty
that was hidden deep inside
and maybe she could of seen
I needed it just as much as she did
Published 22nd May 2018
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22nd May 2018 11:25am
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22nd May 2018 11:26am
22nd May 2018 11:39am
Well it’s a fictional story, but the guy in the story is supposed to be helpful.
Actually the deeper meaning of it is a guy trying to love a person with bipolar. Though I didn’t want it to be too clear of that.
Also would like to say I'm strongly against abuse. Those kind of guys are scum.
Thanks for reading 😁
Actually the deeper meaning of it is a guy trying to love a person with bipolar. Though I didn’t want it to be too clear of that.
Also would like to say I'm strongly against abuse. Those kind of guys are scum.
Thanks for reading 😁
Anonymous
22nd May 2018 3:50pm
I was so glad to see the fictional tag at the bottom! Argh, the pain this one carries is heavy. Well done...if I had to hazard a guess, I'd say you've lived this pain at some point...
...Willow
...Willow
I have more experience with relationships like this than I probably should lol. Though I wasn’t really trying to take from any of that. Mostly because I wanted this to feel final, and a bit hopeless. I’m pretty ignorant when it comes to hope hehe 😁
Thanks so much for reading 🤗
Thanks so much for reading 🤗
23rd May 2018 11:09am
Maybe a previous encounter was to recent to properly accept while trying to avoid looking like trash.
Hence discouraging you. Instead of just admitting the situation.
Especially considering you guys keep each other updated on those type of things.
And she knows it
Hence discouraging you. Instead of just admitting the situation.
Especially considering you guys keep each other updated on those type of things.
And she knows it
23rd May 2018 6:46pm
No situation to admit? The relationship I’m in now I have been in for awhile. Also I’m very happy in my relationship.
I just wanted to write a story about loving someone with a mental disorder. Something I do have experience with. Though that experience wasn’t as tragic as this story and has been a few years. Not that I really want to go into too much detail with that, but rest assure it wasn‘t abusive in anyway it just was difficult. As for keeping updated with that person. Not sure what you mean? Seeing as it is in the past people don’t always keep updated with people in the past. :-/
I do thank you for showing such interest in my poem ^^ Hope I cleared things up?
I just wanted to write a story about loving someone with a mental disorder. Something I do have experience with. Though that experience wasn’t as tragic as this story and has been a few years. Not that I really want to go into too much detail with that, but rest assure it wasn‘t abusive in anyway it just was difficult. As for keeping updated with that person. Not sure what you mean? Seeing as it is in the past people don’t always keep updated with people in the past. :-/
I do thank you for showing such interest in my poem ^^ Hope I cleared things up?
17th Jun 2018 7:43am
Very nicely writter. Thank you so much for sharing auch a heartfelt read. Have a wonderful day.
