I STILL REMEMBER

I still remember not knowing my parents
I still ask why you gave me away
Why did you bring me into this world
If you didn't want me anyway

I still remember the orphanage
How often i was bullied there
Why didn't anyone help me
All those times i was pushed down the stairs

I still remember when you said you liked me
How you thought i was different from the rest
I was foolish to believe you and your cruel game
How you all laughed and said it was just a test

I still remember being too poor to buy a car
All those miles i walked just to get to work
No longer willing to be homeless
Only to find my boss so mean and acted like a jerk

I still remember the day my dog died
Oh how i wish i wasn't there
When the car came and hit you
You were the only thing that cared

I still remember each and every christmas
How often i cried at being alone
Watching others buy gifts for loved ones
No one even called my phone

I still remember watching your wedding
From across the street up on the hill
Thought of how you lied to me
How you told me i was a joke, just to get a thrill

I still remember asking myself
Why do i want to go on
When all my dreams have vanished
And all my hopes are gone

I still remember trying to take my life
This world has given me nothing but heartache and pain
Would anyone even miss me or know that i was here
When they find my dead body soaked in the nights rain

I still remember the day i found you
You said your name was Jesus and you would be my friend
Told me my life had purpose and i'm a child of a king
You said you will love me forever, how i will be a winner in the end