Bereavement

No matter how many lives you saved
The moments your braved
The struggle it took to
Just be able to get up the next day
Constantly seeking validation from people who will never think you’re worth shit.
Inside you feel worthless
But let’s cut the bullshit,
I’m- Trying to balance between hating myself and the fact that, you leaving in peace just left me in pieces
Fuck that, pour the wine- it’s fine
Percocets to ease the stress
I do my best , I just don’t belong
“It doesn’t take away the pain it passes it along”
Pain. Like they give a fuck, oh you mean financial burden?
Welcome to my world, full of hurdles.
At least it won’t be met by the demons in your head
that tell you everyone would be better off
if you’re just fucking dead.
There’s a rope and a shed,
just fucking do it pussy, you can’t shush me
Fuck that, pour the wine- it’s fine
Percocets to ease the stress
I do my best, I just don’t belong
“It doesn’t take away the pain it just passes it along”
Take a Xanax, relax
It’s only your soul that’s dying
Millions of people are just like you
Using whatever vice they can to get through
It’s nothing new
Why you beat yourself up about it?
Don’t doubt it,
bump that line, you’ll be fine
Don’t wanna be alone?
drugs will always be there
Oh they don’t teach that in DARE?
How good it feels just to-Not pull out your fucking hair
Or give a shit if anyone fuckin cares
Just one more second you don’t have to
Admit to yourself that you’re fuckin scared