V + V = (love story)

V met V on tumblr
that poetry has caught her eye

…then an year passed

as V was falling out of love
a decision came…

to find out more on V

so it begun…

the conversation
the date
the second date
that dinner
that wine
that first kisses
…and the logical fuck

V fell euphorically in love
until V’s meltdrown
in intuitive realization

V was not that much into V
as V was into V…

so…

there was D
with the ambiguity that brought…

…and the trepidation

V slowly slid into
unannounced involvement
as V was not into sharing decisions

remember that night
when V took V home
and V slid into
living in with V together

it was only for the summer

…V’s shoulder slid out of the joint

as comparison is unavoidable
it was V’s commitment for the future

…the summer passed

then September…
V slid into staying for the winter
in another unannounced decision
to address V’s insecurities

transition
…but not a transformation

V’s greater commitment
invited the exploitation
the provocations
the feelings of entrapment
both obliterating love

as far as the committed V knows
the least interested V
has all the power
as V can easily walk away
sliding back
into V’s old and so familiar
status quo

pushing the matter is scary
and yet unpostponeable
after that year
of trepidation

…V continues to avoid

first
the loss of their connection
due to V’s initiated break-ups

second
the loss of peace
and comforts
due to the challenges
of transformation

third
the loss of freedom
due to having
match the bet of V
or leave the game

V now decides it’s time to push
and you are counting…

…there are three dues
and it’s time to pay them