Joy comes with a price

I am suppose to be a witness for the Glory of God
yet who am I, but a mere sinner in the flesh
Thank you for saving me,  I could never do it myself
I have so much to be thankful for and yet my life (1 Thes. 5:18)
upon looking back, could be anything but exemplary
I pray for the words of your divinity and love (Jesus)
 to stay close to my lips
so I could share them with anyone, anytime, anywhere
still I quake and shiver when it comes time to deliver
I have never experienced more joy, then when I have done it
Why then, do I not do it all the time? Oh please Holy Spirit
give me this joy more often, so I may share with others,
' joy '
So here i repent, for not sharing your gifts,
help me to give, more hearts a true lift
It is meant with true love and not to annoy
so please kick my butt out there, to share all your joy
Mark 16:15