Down A Lonely Path

Such wondrous wonders my eyes no longer see
For I am disenchanted by the thought of being me
Though to be any other, oh this I wouldn't dare
Those are the thoughts that I dare not share
For who wouldn't say that I throw a party of pity
Whether I scream it out loud or type in the city
I swear I don't look for attention only to vent
For it's been a long time since my feelings I've spent the facade grows too heavy, I'm no longer strong
Carrying this to a place I finally belong
The truth is though I can't find such a place
When I catch a glimpse just as soon there's no trace
Days just grow longer and I don't want to play
I am not tethered here there's no reason to stay
Journeying again and onto the next path
Underneath the light of day and the suns wrath
This path is well beaten and been travelled by others
Some leaving notes of encouragement for one another
Though some messenger's messages stop so abrupt
As though on their way some great thing interrupts
Knowing not how long this journey may take
Or how I must lay my head down and once more rewake
Someday I think I will look forward to these things
Maybe stop and smell the roses or hear a bird sing
One day I will get there, someday, somehow
For this moment though I must trudge on for now