Just not forever
Here you are, but now your gone.
For many years Iíve run this marathon.
Accepting that you may not always confide.
To the needs of my heart that want to abide.
By you, your love and everything else in-between.
I often question if any of my feelings are ever seen.
By you and by others, are they really that closed off.
Tell me if my ego blocks my love with a disguise of tough?
You confessed to me that you had feelings for me.
And when we are together thats truly all I see.
But when you leave it feels like your gone for good.
Is this your tactic to leave my heart bleeding to the misunderstood?
Iíve come to terms that maybe you are the same as me?
Maybe your heart is ready, but your head isn't as keen?
Your troubled past I completely understand.
Is that what stops you from taking my hand?
When you leave it shatters like glass,
Causing me to question loves that have passed.
Im not a patient person, but for you I could wait forever.
My heart will live lonely until your ready to fight the weather.
Through thick and thin you know I will always have your back.
Within myself I have already made that pact.
Iíve never really come to terms with the idea of love?
But with you I think Iím ready to release the white doves.
Give it a shot and see where that bullets lands.
And if we survive that? Maybe we could make some plans?
It will never work, And Iím pretty sure I know that.
But something inside me still wants to travel the track.
To get to know you for more then just our sex and laughs.
With you I want share memories and a wall of photographs.
Trust me when I say Iíve never been good at this.
If you think the same, then maybe we have some bliss?
I believe nothing is forever not even tattoos.
With you maybe I could stop using that as an excuse.
Iím writing this for not you but really myself.
to really conclude this book and put it on shelf,
To possibly start a new chapter with you?
Maybe all this work is to find some sought of clue?
A long time ago you said you had feelings for me,
And I said I had the same for you. We both could see.
Perhaps its time for us to have another talk,
over a cigarette and casual trendy walk?
See where we stand alone or together.
My heart can handle lonely, just not forever.