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Yesterday [Part 4]
This week hasn't been easy for me
Today was really the hardest day for me
As it has for the rest of the family
When we watched them lay you to rest
To keep myself from going insane
I wrote my thoughts away to cope with the pain
But never thought I'd be writing this now that you're in the afterlife
I'm thankful for all of your love, teachings, and sacrifice
It was very difficult to say goodbye
With the family grieving as we wonder why
But you had the bravery to put up a good fight
With the strength of a mustard seed
You still gave all of your might
I knew the ancestors had called you home
To be apart of something huge in the afterlife
I know you would want me to move forward in life
You kept me from being lost
I'm happy that you got your crown and kente cloth
It's that I lost a great friend in a time of need
I'd be selfish to not let you go free
To a place where there's no more pain or suffering
Your soul and conscience is finally at peace
But now that you're gone I felt weak emotionally
Lately I've been caught up in the rapture of grief
Which is why I isolated myself
It's hard to admit but I need some help
Tearing up as I watch grandma look at your pictures on the shelf
Just watching her reminisce about you
And all of the great times we spent together
Then we sat and cried together
But now you're aboard that train
They punched your ticket and now you're on your way
Leaving for a bigger and stronger reason
As the generations change along with every season
I'll never forget how we used to play dominoes
And take our Monday afternoon rides on the backroads
Hearing you and grandma laughing together as I'm yawning
Your fatherly spirit used to brighten up my Saturday mornings
So now everything I do is in memory of your honor
As the pain continues to help me grow stronger
It sounds selfish wishing you could have stayed longer
But I smile at the thought that you're not hurting any longer
I'm not use to this at all
I'm really missing your unexpected phone calls
I just take it one step at a time each day
It hasn't been the same since you've gone away
But the memories and moments we shared won't fade away
But we're still missing you like it was yesterday
Today was really the hardest day for me
As it has for the rest of the family
When we watched them lay you to rest
To keep myself from going insane
I wrote my thoughts away to cope with the pain
But never thought I'd be writing this now that you're in the afterlife
I'm thankful for all of your love, teachings, and sacrifice
It was very difficult to say goodbye
With the family grieving as we wonder why
But you had the bravery to put up a good fight
With the strength of a mustard seed
You still gave all of your might
I knew the ancestors had called you home
To be apart of something huge in the afterlife
I know you would want me to move forward in life
You kept me from being lost
I'm happy that you got your crown and kente cloth
It's that I lost a great friend in a time of need
I'd be selfish to not let you go free
To a place where there's no more pain or suffering
Your soul and conscience is finally at peace
But now that you're gone I felt weak emotionally
Lately I've been caught up in the rapture of grief
Which is why I isolated myself
It's hard to admit but I need some help
Tearing up as I watch grandma look at your pictures on the shelf
Just watching her reminisce about you
And all of the great times we spent together
Then we sat and cried together
But now you're aboard that train
They punched your ticket and now you're on your way
Leaving for a bigger and stronger reason
As the generations change along with every season
I'll never forget how we used to play dominoes
And take our Monday afternoon rides on the backroads
Hearing you and grandma laughing together as I'm yawning
Your fatherly spirit used to brighten up my Saturday mornings
So now everything I do is in memory of your honor
As the pain continues to help me grow stronger
It sounds selfish wishing you could have stayed longer
But I smile at the thought that you're not hurting any longer
I'm not use to this at all
I'm really missing your unexpected phone calls
I just take it one step at a time each day
It hasn't been the same since you've gone away
But the memories and moments we shared won't fade away
But we're still missing you like it was yesterday
Published 18th Apr 2018
Author's Note
I finished it up today but I wrote this a few weeks back after my grandfather's death.
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