letter from jail

how slowly time passes here,
alone with my thoughts
daydreams,extended and clear
you say you are done
you leaving is my fear
our life no longer fun
absence of your love
leaves a emptiness
i may never be able to satisfy
i desire my wife
someone to sympathize with me
your eyes know my soul
without you
i have no one near me
no one to approve or disapprove,
or improve my plans
i need you to help repair,
the faults of your poor husband
you are familiar with my failures
and heavy is your dissapointment
i do not deserve you
my life has passed me without great effort
i allowed drugs and evil to rule my being
it is my hope for forgiveness
for you to allow me what i do not deserve
do not despise me
have enough affection for me
to stay with your husband
help regulate my mind
i need a friend
do not leave me with only the distaste of dissapointment
and the usual unnecessary way in witch you have been treated
let me make amends
if not
try to remember me with love
should i never hear from you again

 my heart pours itself out to you
    i have lost everything
  and can not start life new without you
  provide me with the courage.

                 love...