goodbye

there's winter in my head
its snow hides within the stench of the dead
laughter went first, then my smile
now even my tears lie lifeless in a sty
slaughtered dreams, dried up hopes
stare at innocence's putrefied corpse
love buried six feet under
faded into the howling thunder
of morality's abandoned graveyard
filled with withered flowers, suffocating scars

as the stars gaze at the nothingness of reality
embedded into lethargic vanity
while those compulsive urges writhe in agony
trying in vain to abstain from this depravity
I fed my illusions sheltered them well
time to say goodbye
bye bye bloodless butterfly

I still smell those dandelions
they're like an imprint on numb neurons
reminiscent of suppressed times
when unattainable ideals ruthlessly smiled
when there was no infection flooding through my veins
my tiny little yellow hurricanes
waiting for me to revive their seductiveness
lured into nothing less
than abomination-like fantasies
heartbroken soul remedies

i'm but a slave so cold
with no pure petals left to withhold
lost among caresses tainted with blood
wondering about the stars above
all those regrets i miss so much
a memory of a faded touch
I fed my illusions, sheltered them well
so goodbye
bye bye bloodless butterfly

them stars yet gaze at squalid tears
as cumbersome echoes mumble in my ears
a lullaby with razorblade bows on my wrists
and I listen to its tunes released in the mist
dripping steadily into the abyss
of unconsciousness
beautiful madness
stay blessed
I fed my illusions sheltered them well
one last time I kiss you goodbye
so bye bye bloodless butterfly
I will let you die