Turning On The God's Axis

       
I ache with rain colored pain  
it carries the full spectrum and hues  
of the emotions we feel as humans  
 
the blues of the heartbroken  
the red of dying passion  
greens of my jealous nature  
white where there is nothing but an emptiness  
that consumes all the feelings surrounding it  
 
I've awoken as if out of a deep sleep  
to strange happenings  
and unexplained feelings  
they confound my thinking  
believing they belong to me  
 
then a new day begins  
and i'm told today will be one of leisure  
suddenly i'm alone again  
i'm just me, just Brenda  
 
no more double vision  
showing me the hidden meanings  
of the most mundane things around us  
i'm just an Earthbound Misfit again  
 
but I feel it, that boundary  
that if I push hard enough on it  
it will push back  
because i'm locked into a certain destination  
all the while discovering  
the reason for this journey  
 
sigh the answers are coming  
in the spirits I channel  
in the messages left by fellow travelers  
 
we are not alone in the universe  
all of us being groomed to take our places  
as jewels of the cosmos  
crowning the King of all that is benevolent  
if there is such a being  
 
I know there to be many entities  
making the world as we know it turn  
affecting outcomes with magic or sleight of hand  
or is life just one big illusion?  
 
I look forward to training days  
perhaps more answers will come then