The Fight

I see beauty where there's not
the lies, the truth, the pain
I feel the world around me
and I feel so fucking drained

I need the shelter of loving arms
hold me here so I can't fall apart
I'm drowning in the black again
the weight is crushing my heart

So i lay awake to the sound of nothing
breaths emptying into still air
I have a thousand words to say
but there is no one there

My mind is drifting further down
and I remember all my choices
i am absolutely nothing here
Please help me stop the voices..

The pills I flushed so long ago
I couldn't stand them anymore
I thought I could fight it on my own
just like i've done before

but still I see beauty where there's not
the lies, the truth, the bitter pain
I can't stand this world around me
I am so fucking drained..