Wedding Day

I    
     
The moment I felt Death      
courting you      
my rib cage collapsed    
     
splintered into loss    
it would take lifetimes    
of growth to reform belief   
from shattered cartiledge
and bone    
     
I curled into childhood--  
that strange little girl      
always alone
talking to herself      
on the playground    

Thinking she was whispered      
a safe solitude    
of hush-holy clouds      
cammoflaging her      
from mating rituals  
unnoticed;      
     
a detached being    
seen in shades of rock      
beneath surfaced depth      
Death itself couldn't touch   
 
From there I grew--
     
II.    
     
Wherever that courtship      
carried you, into a marriage      
and honeymoon--
I'd never know

I renounced hope    
a solitude of celibate womb    
misguided by a Magic Flute  
     
I wanted to know
you'd made it across
See Love embracing you      
before surrendering      
to my Universal course      
     
So my heart grew talons    
gripped the earth where it stood    
became obstinate      
refused to budge      
     
But, Love is the birth of Truth  
that severs the umbilical cord   
     
You were, after all    
the first coup de foudre    
I climbed aboard    
and could've been      
the last amour      
out of this place    
     
Had it not been      
for the Grace destined      
to take your place--    
lift me from drowning    
from lonely demise    
     
But, only when I learned    
to finally let you go    
and say Goodbye      
     
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