Sorry to my unknown lover

 

Sorry to my unknown lover.
I am so sad that you will be with another.
I am so scared of falling in love.
I am more scared of not being loved.


My head is so full up with ghosts.
You will be the one I miss the most.
I’m afraid that I have given up.
I think that I have said enough.


I must go to save you from me.
I must stay silent and set you free.
I cannot, put you through this.
I will not, put you through this.


I will stay alone and cry and die.
I will pray in another life, I am stood at your side.
I have crashed over a cliff,
Because I fell in love and it smashed me to bits.


I have already chosen why.
I have already been convinced by my own lies.
I couldn’t be there for you and stand up tall.
I can barely breathe or stand at all.


I couldn’t give you all you need.
I couldn’t stand to let you see,
The broken thoughts inside my head.
They are overflowing with regret
And every word I never said,
Sticks into me like pins and in the end,
I know I will have to walk away;
I have to go, there is no other way.


I cannot look into your eyes,
Without you seeing into mine.
I cannot hide and tell a lie;
I want to be with you, but I cannot, this time,
Or any other time in space,
Or any other way or place.
Impossible is all I know,
So I will fade and you will go
And all I will be left with is a memory,
The chance I never took and my misery.


I turn my back to protect you,
And when I turn back around, you have moved.
I see the door as it closes shut…
I’m sorry I couldn’t say…I love…


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