to my son

 
do you know me yet?

after all that I've shown
and revealed to you
I needed one to match me
if possible best me

an equal

one with understanding
one who feels what it's like to walk in my shoes
so I gave you fame
I gave you power
took it from you
left you abandoned

I've shown you more than anyone
my secret place
the quiet one
where no one is allowed to follow

the darkness isn't new
it was first
it may be the last

no stars, sun, or sounds
to intrude upon my solitude
if I take this option
there won't even be a you

your jealousy clouds your judgement
my hand isn't forced
it never has been

your lust for war
I instilled it in you
I desired a real war
you've given me that

will you quit now?

walk off the field
hang your head in shame
you're mine I claim you openly
on the record

you were the first
are the oldest
but not my only

I can't give you my suicide
there is no easy out for one like me
I can start again if needed
my plan may yet derail

this plane my seedling of hope

that someday there will be full grown entities
with lust, desires
and strength to match my own

I didn't say when or how long
even I don't know

evolution of the fittest in progress
just so you know
nothing, not a soul is wasted