Grandma E.

I couldn't say goodbye
Now you fill my mind
I stay up all night
Tears fill my eyes

What hurts more
is that you didn't remember me
or the nights I visited you
Just to make sure you had somebody

And Dad,
you thought he was you're son
He never corrected you
cause it would cause too much harm

You were ornery
And you were loud
But we still tried our best
to make you proud

Tell me, how's paradise
does it have warm seas
and sweet ice?

Is Grandma A. doing alright?

I cry, cause I know I'll miss you
It sounds selfish, but what else can I do
I've had you for so long
I not used to thinking
I have to keep moving on without you

Tell me, are the skies blue
is it always sunny
is there always something to do?

did you choose to be young,
when the angels welcomed you?

Our hearts are heavy,
with anvils stuck in our throats
weighing us down
making it feel like there's no place to go

Did it hurt, when you said goodbye
Seeing all of us with tears in our eyes?
Did you know, in the end,
we'd be alright?
Are you watching over us,
day and night?
These wounds are so deep now,
but we know they'l heal with time.

If I could have said one last thing
It wouldn't have been goodbye
It would have been "I love you"
and I would've held you tight

So, I guess I want to say
I love you
and Dad and I will be alright.