A female presence

All I want is someone presence, a female to be real not to judge me for THE things I do or listen to hear say. Baby I want you to listen to what your heart saying not just your mind, because sometimes it can lead you in the wrong place if you keep second guessing yourself. Baby just pray for guidance and patience,  we may not be perfect for each other, but if God keep pushing you my way maybe we meant to be God work in mysteries ways. I just love everything about you, your mind, heart, and soul, but I don't want your body that can come later, sex is just a feeling to make a person think that they need it to ease the things that are on their mind and call it a stress reliever than they starting getting picky and judging by people body parts and what size it is down below. Baby don't divide your legs open up your heart.  I don't want you to THINK that you have to change, because of low self-esteem kicking it and wanting someone to look at you, but you you missing the point. Putting all THIS make up and everything they Have for women to make them LOOK good, but in reality you TRYING to change what God created, just because its there that don't mean you have to get that is how they get people by advertisement,  YOU don't really need that the only thing that you need is God, his love, and my love if you want it. I see you focusing on other people who don't care about you at all, so I just split and let God show you the way, may the lord put you in a position to change your mind and the way you THINK I don't want you to keep just walking in and out my life like Jenny did Forrest when she found out she had cancer, the guys who was picking was no good, but Forrest really LOVED her even though she had flaws. Yea I want a clean woman, innocent until proven guilty, but I just don't want no female to get with me because I'm her last choice even though she tried other guys and it didn't work or try to make love to me like a routine of doing something over and over again I want it to be fresh and brand new.  I want her to come to me without no choice just because you feel my spirit and my love for you. Text me or hit me up without even asking for money or want me to help you out when you satisfied or when you done using me just stop calling. I don't want no begger or no mocher who is after my money with that fake love.   just call to hear my voice and want to come around me to feel my energy plus my presence and just to appreciate what I done and the work I put in overall. I just want a friend.