Deja Vu

 
deja vu: I see you  
glinting  
from the corner  
of my eye  
shadows electrify  
ignite  
memories  
 
recollections flutter by  
as I’m  
wandering  
through space and time  
 
I’m swept away...  
 
scenes are dripping  
vacant eyes are peering  
cautious and leery  
at painted canvas  
 
stained  
reminiscence stings  
spilling into me  
grasping at  
imaginations  
hieroglyphics of  
impermanence  
 
metaphysics  
I wonder at  
your meaning  
 
dreaming  
repetitious screaming  
as a blade  
presses into skin  
splits  
peeling open  
crimson beading  
 
I awake  
but can’t escape  
this haunting feeling  
bleeding  
damaged  
I’ve breached capacity  
 
silenced...  
 
traveling offender  
hindered  
my psyche falters  
relive it all for  
an addiction  
daunting  
calling its puppeteer  
 
and so it is  
as I feared  
a fervent fever burns  
internal taunting  
eternally concealed  
 
suicide:
please beseech me  
 
I am in need...