SOMETIMES I FEEL

Sometimes I feel

Like there are these rare moments

Like time rewound itself and stood still,

And you remind me of him.

I know you can’t stand the comparison

But it’s the way I’m feelin.

See its times like this where we should be caressed in bliss

Laid up

Your finger tips

To mine… all bundled up listening to the rain cry from the heavens out loud..

But we’re not,

And I lay alone,

Cold

To the thoughts of him.

Was today National Ignore your girlfriend day?

Because I didn’t get the memo, I’m afraid I must say.

So, sometimes I feel

Like there are these rare moments

Like time rewound itself and stood still

And you remind me of him.

There are these moments when you love be like nobody’s business,

With constant kisses

Without restraint.

But then… oh but then

Well, it’s like you got the flu, and I’m the bug, and you fight me,

Nah not physically

But mentally

Like silence is your best friend

And you don’t know how to talk to me in the least bit…

Maybe if I was one of ya “bruhs..” or one of ya “sis’s”

You’d become a better conversationalist.

Why do I always feel like I’m the odd man..

Well woman, out in your circle?

Maybe I don’t belong

And maybe that’s whats wrong

I don’t know but….

Sometimes I feel

Like there are these rare moments

Like time rewound itself and stood still

And yes, you remind me of him.

I know I’m not crazy

And I know I’m not trippin

I’m just trying to make some sense of it.

I have some kind of complex

And I crave some kind of healing

Because I can’t shake this feeling.

Just for once, can I have you

And only you, and not be reminded of that fool.

Then MAYBE one day I’d feel..

Like time kept going

And we kept growing like ever before

And giving in to the effects of him would be no more.

You say you’re living in the shadows of him like it’s my fault

But sweetie you chose this, or at least that’s what I thought.

Love is the sickest

feeling

And to say I’d do it all over again….. With him,

I think I’d be lying.

Lord only knows my troubles

And He’s the only one that’s going to heal my sorrows,

So I’ll continue to wait on him

To fix me within

Because I can’t keep fighting

Or ima loose time and time again

I write this in confidence that I’d be understood

But for some strange reason, I feel like Imma be misunderstood

Yet again.

The story of my life….

When will it begin.