Heart shaped pendant

Beginning
You were the first person to make me feel loved
You were my best friend
Finally I felt understood
Finally I felt love

You’d play with me
Flirt with the idea that you loved me
Caress my ego
You told me
I was your best friend
The funniest person you knew
The most beautiful

I was afraid of you
Because of how much I loved you
I was scared to lose you

When I found the courage to share my feelings
You told me you loved me as a friend
You told me I wasn’t your type

But what about the times you tried to kiss me?
What about the nights we lay in bed
Our bodies so close
Our toes touching
I told you all my secrets
Our souls felt intertwined
We had big dreams
We did everything together
Our adventures were just beginning

To coremmorate our bound
We each had half a heart shaped pendant
Which together made a whole heart
The necklace had “best friend” engraved on it
Your half read “be, fri”
And mine “st, end”
Now our heart necklaces will never be whole
I stare at my necklace
While I trace the jagged heart edges
The engraving “end” glares up at me

But I’m not your type
If you had told me how to change
I would of chopped myself up
To conform

But instead you left me in the dark
Lost, cold and alone
Questioning my reality
Was it all in my mind?

I’d lay awake for nights on end
The crying never seeming to end
I hadn’t just lost a love
I lost my best friend
I lost the only person who gave my mind clarity
The only person I loved

I lashed out at you
Because of the pain

Because of my actions
You sent me a text
A text that would illuminate me
While I lay alone in my dark room
“You’re incapable of love”
You were the first person I loved
But I’m incapable

Maybe if I was capable
You’d of loved me back
Maybe if I wasn’t a broken toy
You’d of wanted me
But then maybe I’d of never met you
And then I’d never of fallen in love
Either way, there was no
Happy
End