Is this the End?

Am I the only one that believes that suicide is a beautiful thing?
do not misunderstand me, I did not say it was good or that anyone should do it
it just has a poetic nature
When someone is about to take their own life they are at their most  real state
most often they are alone in the moment
where were you and what were you doing when you were at your most real moment in time

if it be by artillery that be the quickest way to go
if by hanging or by drowning that being the slowest and most thought provoking way
I am not telling anyone to or how to kill themselves
I do not wish that on anyone
I am just speaking on perception
just not from a first person point of view

for those that try this means of exit
the letter is the most important part
they want people to know why it came to such a drastic measure
or they could care less at all

the final moments is where it all stands
do I go through with it
or do I stick around and hope things get better

I wonder what flowers they will use at my funeral

please don't end it this way
this is not the solution
please talk to me
for my voice is louder than the grim reaper that is knocking at your door