Life is a tribulation

 
Life is a tribulation,
 
A vortex of perplexed thought,
 
Often littered with pawns,
 
A game not for the faint hearted or ill willed,
 
God , I still disbelieve,
 
For have i sinned,
 
i whisper my despondency quietly,
 
Hoping the angels will cup my sentiments,
 
Like raindrops in autumn seasons,
 
cyclic like my emotions,
 
a nonstop camouflage,
 
A carousel of dreamed visions,
 
still awaiting for for that mermaid,
 
To swim a shore,
 
My rivers run deep,
 
Are my intentions clear,
 
For am i just a blinded knight,
 
the light illuminates the spectrum,
 
I forego the rainbow, for pots of gold,
 
 
 
Is this crusade a worthy venture,
 
I hear your prophecy,
 
Your outpouring deafened by the screams of the sacriligeous,
 
Looking for love in a harem of hate,
 
One day i will see beyond my ego,
 
Shed my coccoon,
 
learn to feel oh sentient Son,#
 
Let your spirit and heart reunite,
 
In almighty grace,
 
Life is a tribulation,
 
quench your thirst from the fountain of love,
 
Not an oasis of emotional hate.