Right Now

Sitting alone
Face screwed up in angst
Tears rolling slowly
Caressing
My cheeks
As it falls gently to land on
My open hand
As it wonders why
Why me
Yet again

Screaming at the sky
Begging for my own
Miracle
That never seems to come
Am I cursed
To always have my happiness
Broken and torn from me

The weight of my world
Rested solely on these two shoulders
Lies told to me as a child
That one day
I will live
happily ever after
Maybe
On the last day of
My life
I will finally know Happiness
And
Peace

Useless
Feeling so lost
Inside
My mind
My heart
Like a gaping hole
Has been left
And all I do is keep
Falling into it

Even in silence
I can hear my scream
Endless
Lonely
Tired
Even surrounded by
The arms of love
I still feel
Oh so
Alone

Do you know the straw
That broke the camels back?
Well I do.......
I am that camel
And the straw
My own personal Hell